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did you see me?
i was out of control
laughing, joking,
anything to keep from taking your hand
locking your eyes
and telling you what I'm feeling

did you think it was odd?
you used to know me
but you didn't know me;
my smile was more than
"nice to see you"
it was
"god, I need you"

so many excuses
just to put my face near you
while i imagined my breath
upon your neck
and my arms around you
talking about something
unrelated
unremembered

sitting across from you
in my head
my thoughts were on
your eyes
your smell
the way your hair curled around your ear
the shape of your mouth when you really smile
how beautiful your ears were

so i talked
and you never knew
how badly i needed to see you
every single day
with every look
and every word
there was never a time
when i stood next to you
that i did not think
"i love you."


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